Living my freedom...

Finally my chemotherapy ended! Thanks, God! I took long time to really believe it´s over - last one was been in may 27th , over 2 months. Only now I permit myself to plan my future and not only dream about next day...

Sorry, I didnt have enough nice things to tell and I prefered to keep myself quiet for some time. When good things started to happen in my life I saw myself so crazy and so busy that I really forgot to write.(excuses :D )

God, so many things happening! My boyfriend was been here 2 months(he made me "busy") and he just went back to Finland. In few days it will be my time to come back to Finland too. Soon I will be in a new apartment, I restart my finnish lessons and I will live with my guy again...

I have so many plans...so many goals...
I need to start my "fixing" project somehow ... Those chemicals destroyed my skin, body, hair, my "normal" life...So, the plan for now:

• diet and exercices to lose weight! I got 14 kg with that chemotherapy... and I just got permit from my doctor to really exercice. Good. With diet, I lost 4 kg since june(too little) and I will lose the 10's left untill september!(ai,ai,ai)
• Tomorrow I will color my great 3cm hair(wonderful for who was been bald) and care of my nails by first time in this year.
• Im feeding Miss Piggy- my piggy bank- to have my plastic surgery at end of this year
• I start finnish classes in september. After 3 year going to/coming from Finland, I still cannot speak enough finnish to live in Finlan. I usually survive there with my bad english...
• Im going to have another GMAT test in october...more english to study...
• I also will try in october to be accepted for another graduation in a finnish university.
• My love want a baby... we will workout soon to have a baby with little help of tecnology...

Those can look like normal plans for the most of people but for me it´s unbelievable great that I going to have life again...

Aiaiai....

Well, I decided to have a blog whatever it means... It can be insane...

I think it will help me to improve my English and the most important: have a little usefull time.

Im in a complicated time of my life... My life "stopped" for some time.

Because of a cancer treatment I'm living with my parents and not able enough to work, live alone and take the risks I was taking to study, to have a nice job. I´m not a sad person because of my health treatment but, for sure, I want more for my life than be dependent of my parents and live in the small village where they live.

Two years ago, when I was been graduated economist, I decided to move to Finland in a crazy way. My intention was to have a master degree and improve my English somehow. I sold everything I had and, with help of a friend, traveled to Finland. My plan was learn enough Finnish and improve my English to be accepted in a Finnish university. That didn´t work at all. I had bad results in a English test(GMAT) and was not been accepted in the master degree. Anyway, that was been a great experience. It´s wonderful to travel! And Finnish culture is very curious, not easy, but interesting. I could say nowaday that I like Finland a lot. Hard to believe. :D
In the last two years i was been part time in Finland, part time in Brazil. Without my master degree, I didnt get the visa to live there but I also didnt give up of study there. So, Im still trying. :D
More: after many trips to Finland a have a great boyfriend there.
Nine months ago, cancer. I came to Brazil to visit my family and one health check up pointed cancer. I just have known boyfriend in Finland and everything goes more complicated.
Well, surgery, chemotheraphy, no Finland, no good job but my family, good friends and a nice boyfriend. Soon or later this chemotheraphy ends and Im back to the fight.

I hope until the end of this year I will be in Finland, living with my love, having my master degree and with good part of my beauty back(chemotheraphy can destroys any selfconfidence but i still feel myself a beautiful girl).

And now this blog. I think I will enjoy it!!!! I promisse better posts about my life. It was only a initial message to introduce myself.

Let´s go on... Life is beautiful.